Well, last time I checked in here I was beginning this brilliant plan to bring you picture after picture, and word after word of all that I love about Petaluma/Sonoma/California. This seemed, at the time, like a small and important task. It turned out however, to be a monumental emotional roller coaster that I just couldn't step onto to ride. It was overwhelming.
Every piece of our lives this last 8 weeks has felt overpowering. As if, if you will, we were caught in a riptide that was slowly pulling us away. We've maybe even been yelling for help, "Please! We didn't mean to go insane and say yes to Hawaii. Please Petaluma, we love you!". But, Petaluma just keeps milling down the beach, picking up shells shaped like eggs.
And so here we are, the movers are packing, the house is emptying, we're saying goodbyes left and right and letting go is becoming very, very hard.
No, I didn't manage my multiple posts of goodbye to this town. A town that has shaped our lives, this blog and our future. But let it be known that we are in a complete state of mourning. This is home, a home we are choosing to leave (god knows why?), for a tropical paradise. Ouch. it's like ripping off a band aid as it all settles in.
All I can imagine to do now is to say, without hesitation, that we will miss it all. All of town, all of this lifestyle, all of YOU!
Perhaps there is more Mouse in the Pantry to come. Maybe mouse will morph. I'm not commiting to anything just yet. Either way, this journey through small town self publishing, blogging, freelancing, catering, mothering, friend-finding, growing up, has been lovely. Amazing. The best!
Thank you Petaluma and all of you who make her so lovely.
We LOVE you.